I was preparing for a podcast on “The Uncanny Valley” when it hit me. I’ve found myself on an island. On this island I am building something.
I didn’t quite recall how I got to this island. This place is secluded. No one else is here.
How did I end up here?
Then it dawned on me. I made a decision.
This decision came from being fed up with the direction my life was going previously.
I had everything, or so I thought. But I’ve built a self imposed prison.
At this point I was looking at my old self from the outside in. All those years I didn’t want to be there. I thought I had no other choice.
The best way I can describe my epiphany at this current moment is as a fleeting nostalgia.
Why am I telling you all of this?
Because like me, you know what you want. The difference is that you haven’t made a choice.
You’re waiting for something. What or who are you waiting for?
You see, we’ve been conditioned by the school system with tests, exams, gold stars to accept accolades as a way of progress.
The result is a fleet of zombies walking around. People who forego their dreams everyday to sit in an office.
I know because I was one of those people. I’m doing to be studying “The Uncanny Valley” at length because many of us catch a glimpse of it but don’t recognize it.
The uncanny valley is that part of us that sees something that triggers the aforementioned repressed material from our childhood causing it to jump to the surface at a moments notice.
In other words, we’ve always known what we wanted. We know what we want right now. We just aren’t brave enough for whatever reason to admit it.
Maybe we were bullied into cowardice, had our self esteem lowered, who knows. But I know one thing, you know what you want.
I’ll share this little exercise from a mentor of mine: write down two things, the thing your gut wants you to do which is the thing you loved to do as a child or the thing you dreamt you would be doing as a child and write down the thing you are pretending to want to do, the thing you were brainwashed to want to do.
Now flip a coin. Heads you follow your gut, tails you follow your brain.
As the coin was in the air you were wishing it would land on heads right? Do that. You don’t need any more confirmation or motivation. Just do what you’ve always wanted to do.